Friday, December 24, 2010

Dear Mom.

Dear Mom,

This will be my 6th Christmas without you and I just wanted to let you and the universe know how much I miss you.
I miss buying our tree at the market and in later years, going out to cut it down ourselves.
I miss decorating it together while we listened to Johnny Mathis's Christmas on vinyl.
I miss buying you gifts.
I miss making biscuits on Christmas morning.
I miss the way you made me feel each and every year.
I miss being that special.
You loved me in a way no one else ever will and my heart feels broken this year without you.
All I want for Christmas is a hug from my mom.

5 comments:

Anonymous said...

Ok so your blog just made me bawl my eyes out. I was feeling so tired and worn out from Christmas and then reading that made me think of how lucky I am to have my mom even though she is far and to be a mom myself. I dont know you very well but you are such an amazing person and have accomplished so much and Im sure your mom would be so proud of you. I think your awesome and hope to see more of you this year (im going to make it my resolution to stalk you..haha) love your new stalker, suzanne

Hilary said...

Suzanne! I just saw this now and YOUR comment made ME bawl.
I didn't think anyone was gonna see this - I just needed to put it out there how badly I missed my mom. She was so good at Christmas, so good at making me feel special. And dammit - I miss her.
Yes to more hanging out. Yes.

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pattycakes said...

your comments made me cry cause no one loves me as much as u loved ur mom, i live right around the corner from my kid and grandkids , they hardly come over and hardly ever talk to me online even tho i have fb your a lovely person , you r mom must have loved you so much
have a nice day :)